Mia: Mia has made me laugh today. First there was the "how dare you eat and not give me any food!" look (there was food in her bowl and milk in her dish) and then there was the absolute look of disgust when I shifted her out of my seat on the sofa!
Life: today I have mostly been painting. I finished off one canvas, almost finished another and have started yet another! I also went for a walk for an hour in the sunshine to try and get fit for Berlin in May. Plus watched BBC iPlayer and Netflix. Dunno if I can live this kinda life for the next 40 years but I think I could possibly do it for a while - until the next thing came along.
One Thing: the walk in the sunshine did me good. :)
Thursday, 31 March 2016
Wednesday, 30 March 2016
30th March 2016
Mia: more fun and cuddles with Mia today. Bless her! :)
College: I got to college at 8:30 this morning - half an hour later than normal! And I don't even have to start until 9am! I've done research practically all day - even the one scheduled lesson I had today I ended up doing research! The result is I now have 30+ pages of research for my FMP to cut and stick in my sketchbook over the Easter break - which starts tomorrow.
Life: this evening I have mostly watched BBC iPlayer but anxiety got to me this evening. Whilst depression softens me up by making me all sad, it's anxiety that really moves in for the kill! It's anxiety that tells me the world's about to come to crushing end so I may as well kill myself now! It's anxiety that makes me want to run away and never come back! And it's anxiety that is making me go to bed early tonight so I can go to sleep and stop my anxiety hurting me!
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today, for the umpteenth day in a row, is fun and cuddles with Mia. It's been my one true joy today!
College: I got to college at 8:30 this morning - half an hour later than normal! And I don't even have to start until 9am! I've done research practically all day - even the one scheduled lesson I had today I ended up doing research! The result is I now have 30+ pages of research for my FMP to cut and stick in my sketchbook over the Easter break - which starts tomorrow.
Life: this evening I have mostly watched BBC iPlayer but anxiety got to me this evening. Whilst depression softens me up by making me all sad, it's anxiety that really moves in for the kill! It's anxiety that tells me the world's about to come to crushing end so I may as well kill myself now! It's anxiety that makes me want to run away and never come back! And it's anxiety that is making me go to bed early tonight so I can go to sleep and stop my anxiety hurting me!
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today, for the umpteenth day in a row, is fun and cuddles with Mia. It's been my one true joy today!
Tuesday, 29 March 2016
29th March 2016
Mia: more playing and cuddles with Mia today. Couldn't be happier! :)
College: I got to college early to print off my research for my FMP - except that it took longer than I expected and then I ran out of print credits so had to buy some more which was a rigmarole in itself! Anyway, I had them in time for my graphics lesson so was able to show my tutor. I was the only one in graphics today so had a one-to-one and had a good conversation about what I wanted to do - and what I could do. There was no drawing lesson today though so that left me at a spare end. After college, I went into Liverpool to get a sketchbook for my FMP and concluded that I wanted to do a designer toy and something about grief. So the next step is to see how I can marry those two up somehow.
Life: I arrived home to find a copy of Asylum magazine on my (non-existent) doormat. It contained cartoons I'd done for it. I had prime position too - inside front cover - and it was in colour! - so the first thing you see when you open the magazine are my cartoons! :) This evening I watched iPlayer whilst playing with Mia. :)
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today is playing with Mia. She brings such joy into my life! :)
College: I got to college early to print off my research for my FMP - except that it took longer than I expected and then I ran out of print credits so had to buy some more which was a rigmarole in itself! Anyway, I had them in time for my graphics lesson so was able to show my tutor. I was the only one in graphics today so had a one-to-one and had a good conversation about what I wanted to do - and what I could do. There was no drawing lesson today though so that left me at a spare end. After college, I went into Liverpool to get a sketchbook for my FMP and concluded that I wanted to do a designer toy and something about grief. So the next step is to see how I can marry those two up somehow.
Life: I arrived home to find a copy of Asylum magazine on my (non-existent) doormat. It contained cartoons I'd done for it. I had prime position too - inside front cover - and it was in colour! - so the first thing you see when you open the magazine are my cartoons! :) This evening I watched iPlayer whilst playing with Mia. :)
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today is playing with Mia. She brings such joy into my life! :)
Monday, 28 March 2016
28th March 2016
Mia: I have had a ball with Mia today! We played for a good half hour this morning and this evening it was like she couldnt get enough of me! All the love and cuddles she wanted! :)
Life: this morning I did the weekly food shop but forgot my shopping list! :( This afternoon I set-up my easel at long last (I got it at Christmas!) in the spare bedroom, moved all my canvases, paints and brushes in there and did a bit more work on one of my canvases for my promised exhibition. I'm pleased with what I've done on it so far. :) This evening I watched Guy Ritchie's Sherlock Holmes and Hope Floats whilst doing a page in my colouring book. I liked the music in Hope Floats quite a bit! I will have to look for the soundtrack on Spotify. :)
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today is time spent with Mia. She is such a joy to be with! :)
Life: this morning I did the weekly food shop but forgot my shopping list! :( This afternoon I set-up my easel at long last (I got it at Christmas!) in the spare bedroom, moved all my canvases, paints and brushes in there and did a bit more work on one of my canvases for my promised exhibition. I'm pleased with what I've done on it so far. :) This evening I watched Guy Ritchie's Sherlock Holmes and Hope Floats whilst doing a page in my colouring book. I liked the music in Hope Floats quite a bit! I will have to look for the soundtrack on Spotify. :)
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today is time spent with Mia. She is such a joy to be with! :)
Saturday, 26 March 2016
26th March 2016
Mia: Mia has been an absolute sweetie this evening! :) She came up and gave me several cuddles between sleeps. I love her to death! :)
Life: this morning I discovered a whole load of levels of Angry Birds I'd not played before. So breakfast was somewhat delayed as I didn't even get out of bed until 10am! Once I had got out of bed and sorted myself out, I headed into Liverpool for an 'open studio' at Big Love Sista. I started off doing a bit of Art Journaling and showed Hilary how to do it too and then I did a mixed-media canvas. I didn't really know what I wanted to do with the canvas so just experimented and I think most of it ended up on the newspaper protecting the table but I was really happy with what I ended up with. What was interesting though was I was doing a figure - some said it was my aura - but then Sandra spotted that, upside down, it looked like a wolf and I liked that idea much more so that's what I did! However, as I sprayed it with so much water, it didn't dry in time for me to finish it so I took it home and finished it here whilst 'watching' The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood on Amazon. Anyway, backing up a bit, after the session at the studio, I caught the bus home - except it came on to rain so hard I had to take shelter in a doorway. I'd not seen it rain that hard since I was in Montreal in 1997! As Terry Pratchett wrote in one of his books, it was like a sea with holes in!
One Thing: you'll have to forgive me being vague on this one because I don't want to open a can of worms but on my way to the studio I made someone very happy and the look of delight on their face was a joy to behold! And all for 29p! :)
Life: this morning I discovered a whole load of levels of Angry Birds I'd not played before. So breakfast was somewhat delayed as I didn't even get out of bed until 10am! Once I had got out of bed and sorted myself out, I headed into Liverpool for an 'open studio' at Big Love Sista. I started off doing a bit of Art Journaling and showed Hilary how to do it too and then I did a mixed-media canvas. I didn't really know what I wanted to do with the canvas so just experimented and I think most of it ended up on the newspaper protecting the table but I was really happy with what I ended up with. What was interesting though was I was doing a figure - some said it was my aura - but then Sandra spotted that, upside down, it looked like a wolf and I liked that idea much more so that's what I did! However, as I sprayed it with so much water, it didn't dry in time for me to finish it so I took it home and finished it here whilst 'watching' The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood on Amazon. Anyway, backing up a bit, after the session at the studio, I caught the bus home - except it came on to rain so hard I had to take shelter in a doorway. I'd not seen it rain that hard since I was in Montreal in 1997! As Terry Pratchett wrote in one of his books, it was like a sea with holes in!
One Thing: you'll have to forgive me being vague on this one because I don't want to open a can of worms but on my way to the studio I made someone very happy and the look of delight on their face was a joy to behold! And all for 29p! :)
Friday, 25 March 2016
25th March 2016
Mia: Mia was enjoying the sunshine today so I didn't see much of her until I got home this evening; when we had a lovely long cuddle. :)
College: this morning I sorted out my graphics book for current project. So I can put that behind me now and move onto my FMP (final major project).
Life: this afternoon I created another clay sculpture before heading into Liverpool to look at Clare's Indian goodies at the Big Love Sista studio. I found a lovely silk scarf I fell in love with so I just had to purchase it! I think it'll really set off some of my posher outfits! :) I then went and had shrimp pad Thai at a nearby takeaway before returning to the studio for an 'Indian Evening' where Clare and Sandra told us about their adventures in India last Christmas and read us some of their poetry, before hosting an open mike evening where I got up and read some of my poetry and others entertained as well. However, as the other's stuff was so lovely, I began to fret I'd got the tone wrong for one of my poems which is very sweary. I needn't have worried though because so many people came up to me afterwards to say they loved my poem! :)
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing tonight is performing at the open mike. I do love performing - more often than not - and it's a lovely thing to do - when I'm feeling confident - considering how retreated into my shell I was when I first got involved with Big Love Sista. :)
College: this morning I sorted out my graphics book for current project. So I can put that behind me now and move onto my FMP (final major project).
Life: this afternoon I created another clay sculpture before heading into Liverpool to look at Clare's Indian goodies at the Big Love Sista studio. I found a lovely silk scarf I fell in love with so I just had to purchase it! I think it'll really set off some of my posher outfits! :) I then went and had shrimp pad Thai at a nearby takeaway before returning to the studio for an 'Indian Evening' where Clare and Sandra told us about their adventures in India last Christmas and read us some of their poetry, before hosting an open mike evening where I got up and read some of my poetry and others entertained as well. However, as the other's stuff was so lovely, I began to fret I'd got the tone wrong for one of my poems which is very sweary. I needn't have worried though because so many people came up to me afterwards to say they loved my poem! :)
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing tonight is performing at the open mike. I do love performing - more often than not - and it's a lovely thing to do - when I'm feeling confident - considering how retreated into my shell I was when I first got involved with Big Love Sista. :)
Thursday, 24 March 2016
24th March 2016
Life: they say don't meet your idols. Well, I'm totally glad I met one of mine today! :) For some time now I've followed a web comic called Assigned Male, which is created by Sophie Labelle. Well, she is touring Europe 'meeting her audience' and today she was in Manchester. So considering she'd travelled all the way from Quebec (via Europe), I thought it was the least I could do to travel from Merseyside to meet her! :) She was a total delight - very personable with a wicked sense of humour and I found we agreed almost totally on our politics - in short, she is the sort of person I would love to spend time with socialising and getting to know her better. :) Out of the many memorable quotes she came out with, the one that has really struck a chord with me is that, when asked about Trans politics, she said she'd "love to see Trans people holding the microphone more" - meaning she'd love to see Trans people leading the debate rather than just being pawns of people with their own agenda. :) I agree - if this is truly our 'watershed moment' then we need to be the ones dictating the terms of it... Power to the Trans people! :) Afterwards, she was even gracious enough to have a selfie taken with me, sign my comic and give me some free stickers. As I say, she is a total star and so inspirational! :) After the workshop, I met Sonia for tea - which we did in two parts. First, we had bubble tea - mine was lychee with mango bubbles - and then we went to a Vietnamese restaurant where we had some rice pancakes and then a fried tofu baguette. It was all totally delicious! :) talking about being embarrassed though - the Vietnamese restaurant didn't have any change for my £20, so I had to give them Sonia's tenner instead! She's an impoverished student, so it really wasn't fair at all! :( After that, we went our separate ways and I caught the train back to Liverpool and then the bus home. Even though our public transport system isn't perfect, I am a total convert! It is a total pleasure to be taken places and (usually) arrive relaxed, rather than the hassle of driving and minding the other idiots on the road! It makes me more determined to be rid of my car! I just wish I could be 100% certain I don't need it anymore! It's a big commitment to sell it... and I don't like commitments that large! :(
One Thing: it shall probably come as no surprise that I'm choosing meeting Sophie Labelle today. She was everything I hoped for and more! So glad I met her! :)
One Thing: it shall probably come as no surprise that I'm choosing meeting Sophie Labelle today. She was everything I hoped for and more! So glad I met her! :)
Wednesday, 23 March 2016
23rd March 2016
Mia: my goodness me! I played with Mia practically all night this evening! It wasn't very energetic on my part - I just sat on the sofa flicking the 'fish on a string' around but Mia kept at it right up until she went to bed! Never known her to be that energetic before! :)
College: so I was in college for 8am this morning, having my breakfast, when Andy - lead tutor of graphics - invited me to sit in with his students because he was giving them a presentation on contract negotiation - jolly handy whether I do the BA (Hons) or not! As it happens, I was fully up-to-date with things so was able to say yes (would I really have said no either way??!). After that it was lunch and then contextual studies so I handed my stuff in but she wanted us to do an appraisal of where we thought we were up to and 2016 being the 'year of no bullshit' I was honest and stated in my appraisal that I didn't know where I was upto because, although I was doing the work, without knowing why I was doing the work I couldn't say where I was with things! I'm sure I'll hear back from that next week! :)
Life: this evening I have done two more pages of my colouring book whilst 'watching' Netflix.
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today is sitting in with Andy's students - it all helps clarify the picture for me whether I want to stay on for the BA (Hons).
College: so I was in college for 8am this morning, having my breakfast, when Andy - lead tutor of graphics - invited me to sit in with his students because he was giving them a presentation on contract negotiation - jolly handy whether I do the BA (Hons) or not! As it happens, I was fully up-to-date with things so was able to say yes (would I really have said no either way??!). After that it was lunch and then contextual studies so I handed my stuff in but she wanted us to do an appraisal of where we thought we were up to and 2016 being the 'year of no bullshit' I was honest and stated in my appraisal that I didn't know where I was upto because, although I was doing the work, without knowing why I was doing the work I couldn't say where I was with things! I'm sure I'll hear back from that next week! :)
Life: this evening I have done two more pages of my colouring book whilst 'watching' Netflix.
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today is sitting in with Andy's students - it all helps clarify the picture for me whether I want to stay on for the BA (Hons).
Tuesday, 22 March 2016
22nd March 2016
Mia: I've been spoilt this evening! I've had a cuddle and a short play session with Mia! She's such a sweetheart! :)
College: having to take my A2 canvas back into college today, I elected to take the car. I went via the petrol station and noticed that the price had nipped back over the £1 mark again - that'll be Mr Osborne's fault, no doubt! The college day started with a lecture from a performing arts company wanting creative types for their productions. I can't say as it grabbed me. Graphics lesson went well and then we had our drawing lesson where we had to do a still life. It went better than last time - last term - and I was quite pleased with it. :)
Life: after college I went to choir. A Muslim woman joined us today. I can't help reflect how brave she was to come out tonight after what happened in Brussels. If I was Muslim, I'd be too scared to go out today for fear of bigoted arseholes looking for someone to vent their anger at! It turns out she helped bring a load of faiths come together on International Women's Day and was one of the people who helped Liverpool win City of Culture back in 2008! :)
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today is the kind things my peers/friends at college have been saying about my work. For someone who always thought they were run-of-the-mill, it's flattering and also heart-warming. :)
College: having to take my A2 canvas back into college today, I elected to take the car. I went via the petrol station and noticed that the price had nipped back over the £1 mark again - that'll be Mr Osborne's fault, no doubt! The college day started with a lecture from a performing arts company wanting creative types for their productions. I can't say as it grabbed me. Graphics lesson went well and then we had our drawing lesson where we had to do a still life. It went better than last time - last term - and I was quite pleased with it. :)
Life: after college I went to choir. A Muslim woman joined us today. I can't help reflect how brave she was to come out tonight after what happened in Brussels. If I was Muslim, I'd be too scared to go out today for fear of bigoted arseholes looking for someone to vent their anger at! It turns out she helped bring a load of faiths come together on International Women's Day and was one of the people who helped Liverpool win City of Culture back in 2008! :)
One Thing: the one thing I'm choosing today is the kind things my peers/friends at college have been saying about my work. For someone who always thought they were run-of-the-mill, it's flattering and also heart-warming. :)
Monday, 21 March 2016
21st March 2016
Mia: after a difficult start to the day, giving Mia her much hated flea treatment, this evening ended on a high note when she came for a short cuddle after days of ignoring me. :)
Life: this morning I caught the bus to Morrisons for the weekly shop. I got home just after 10am so did a bit more work on one of my canvases. For lunch I had homemade sushi and then at 3pm I made my way to the dentist for my check-up and was most delighted when she said I didn't need any work - that's twice on the trot now - a whole year without treatment! Wow! :) I then caught the bus to Liverpool where I 'celebrated' my good news with a meal at Casa Italia. I had the tagliatelle, spinach, ricotta and mushroom bake which was gorgeous but didn't leave room for pudding, so I didn't have any of their delicious tiramisu! :( I then went to yoga. Tonight's session was tough but I felt amazing afterwards! :)
One Thing: I'm choosing not needing anything doing at the dentist today. I'm slightly incredulous! Especially considering all the cake, biscuits and sweets I eat! :)
Life: this morning I caught the bus to Morrisons for the weekly shop. I got home just after 10am so did a bit more work on one of my canvases. For lunch I had homemade sushi and then at 3pm I made my way to the dentist for my check-up and was most delighted when she said I didn't need any work - that's twice on the trot now - a whole year without treatment! Wow! :) I then caught the bus to Liverpool where I 'celebrated' my good news with a meal at Casa Italia. I had the tagliatelle, spinach, ricotta and mushroom bake which was gorgeous but didn't leave room for pudding, so I didn't have any of their delicious tiramisu! :( I then went to yoga. Tonight's session was tough but I felt amazing afterwards! :)
One Thing: I'm choosing not needing anything doing at the dentist today. I'm slightly incredulous! Especially considering all the cake, biscuits and sweets I eat! :)
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