Love: I love the British attitude to the weather! Everything is always too much! At the moment it's too hot. Next week, when the temperature drops, it'll be too cold or too windy or too wet etc! Nothing is ever "just right"! But, yeah, it is too hot!
Life: one of the things I put on my Dream Board last week was an elephant, to remind me to be gentle and kind. I can't say I'm succeeding at the moment! I'm not really a tolerant person - especially not of intolerance! But David Cameron says we should be "intolerant of intolerance" so at least I know I'm pleasing someone! :/ (Unfortunately, I rather suspect he has Muslims in mind and is thus dressing prejudice in another coat) Today, I taught at Tomorrow's Women again. I always enjoy teaching there - when I have students to teach! - and today was no exception. I love seeing the creative ways people interpret the same brief! It's awesome! :)
Career: Things are afoot... and, no, I'm not talking about my new Doc Martens! ...or looking to work in a shoe shop! ...or become a mathematician! (Honestly, give people a yard and they take a mile!)
Tuesday, 30 June 2015
Monday, 29 June 2015
29th June 2015
Love: I love how generous people have been, donating money to Big Love Sista after my walk yesterday. For example, my dad emailed me today to say he'd donated £100! So by my reckoning, I'm now at about 3 times my original target! Awesome! :)
Life: Today I have had very stiff legs - and I had to walk to and from work too! The stiffness is slowly wearing off (apart from the back of my knee which is concerning me a bit) but for some reason my toe caught in my sock seam today, peeling some of the skin off - and then I went and kicked my boot getting into bed! Ow! I've also been learning how to facilitate a Circle today, which is interesting. I'm nervous about it all; not entirely convinced it's the best idea I've ever had but I'm liking it enough to at least give it a go! Who knows, maybe I'll be able to pass on some of the magic I've benefitted from this last year and a bit!
Career: after my usual shift this morning, I stayed on for my voluntary role. I decided to do a bit of research into successful marketing via Facebook. It was interesting stuff - not least because no one really seems to know how to be successful at it yet!
Life: Today I have had very stiff legs - and I had to walk to and from work too! The stiffness is slowly wearing off (apart from the back of my knee which is concerning me a bit) but for some reason my toe caught in my sock seam today, peeling some of the skin off - and then I went and kicked my boot getting into bed! Ow! I've also been learning how to facilitate a Circle today, which is interesting. I'm nervous about it all; not entirely convinced it's the best idea I've ever had but I'm liking it enough to at least give it a go! Who knows, maybe I'll be able to pass on some of the magic I've benefitted from this last year and a bit!
Career: after my usual shift this morning, I stayed on for my voluntary role. I decided to do a bit of research into successful marketing via Facebook. It was interesting stuff - not least because no one really seems to know how to be successful at it yet!
Sunday, 28 June 2015
28th June 2015
Love: I love being with my Sistas! I am so lucky to have discovered and be able to spend time with Big Love Sista every week! Sometimes several times a week! Love them! :)
Life: Today I did the Wirral Coastal Walk for the second year running. As Id been too lazy to do much 'training' I found it a lot more difficult this year and was struggling by the 10 mile mark! I still carried on to the end though cos I don't like being defeated! But my legs are proper aching now! :( Thankfully, I had Dave and Libby to keep me company this year. I don't think I would've been able to do it without their consideration and encouragement! Love them! :) This year I did the walk to raise funds for Big Love Sista. See above to see why! Or click here.
Career: I spent the day walking not working! Walking's much harder!
Life: Today I did the Wirral Coastal Walk for the second year running. As Id been too lazy to do much 'training' I found it a lot more difficult this year and was struggling by the 10 mile mark! I still carried on to the end though cos I don't like being defeated! But my legs are proper aching now! :( Thankfully, I had Dave and Libby to keep me company this year. I don't think I would've been able to do it without their consideration and encouragement! Love them! :) This year I did the walk to raise funds for Big Love Sista. See above to see why! Or click here.
Career: I spent the day walking not working! Walking's much harder!
Saturday, 27 June 2015
27th June 2015
Love: Start at the beginning and try again!
Life: I was determined to have a lazy day today but I still did the washing, shopping and cycled to cinema (via Seacombe) and back! At the cinema I watched Mr Holmes which I enjoyed. I thought everyone in it was very good - especially the little lad who played Roger.
Career: Rethinking things. I've had an offer from an acquaintance and I'm giving it some thought. No money involved though.
Life: I was determined to have a lazy day today but I still did the washing, shopping and cycled to cinema (via Seacombe) and back! At the cinema I watched Mr Holmes which I enjoyed. I thought everyone in it was very good - especially the little lad who played Roger.
Career: Rethinking things. I've had an offer from an acquaintance and I'm giving it some thought. No money involved though.
Friday, 26 June 2015
26th June 2015
Love: Yesterday, I blogged about letting go. Tonight I've had to let go of something I've wanted for almost a year now. And, yes, it was painful letting go. And, yes, it did make me angry. But holding onto it was not doing me any good.
Life: Plans for a pleasant evening with Amanda at the cinema were cancelled. So I ended up watching Calvary. It was a good film and actually made me feel sorry for a priest! I wouldn't be at all surprised if the RC Church commissioned it! :D
Career: After my usual shift, I stayed on in the afternoon for my voluntary role. I had a look at our Facebook page and made some rough plans for our social media campaign leading up to Stoptober. It wasn't a bad way to spend an afternoon. :)
Life: Plans for a pleasant evening with Amanda at the cinema were cancelled. So I ended up watching Calvary. It was a good film and actually made me feel sorry for a priest! I wouldn't be at all surprised if the RC Church commissioned it! :D
Career: After my usual shift, I stayed on in the afternoon for my voluntary role. I had a look at our Facebook page and made some rough plans for our social media campaign leading up to Stoptober. It wasn't a bad way to spend an afternoon. :)
Thursday, 25 June 2015
25th June 2015
Love: I can't fight this feeling! :)
Life: This afternoon I was tempted to go for a cycle ride but was worried I would get sunburn and, besides, I had things to do at home and places to be, so I didn't. Maybe tomorrow? This evening I went to Gather The Women. The theme this month was 'Your Inner Voice'. It was interesting and by the end I was reflecting on the journey I'd made in recent years to be OK with my inner voice and accept it for what it is, rather than have an inner voice that brought me very very close to self-destruction. I've also been noticing in recent days how things seem to be adding up and making sense; that what previously seemed terrible I now see as potentially wonderful! :) All that is changed is my attitude. I've also been thinking about loss differently. There is no doubt that the lowest point in my life was John's death. But what it showed me is that nothing is forever. So there's no point trying to fight the inevitability of change and things coming to an end. On one hand, this is great! If I'm going through a really shitty time, then what I should bear in mind is that shitty time will come to an end and things will improve again. That was proven just this last month when May was a really difficult time for me but, looking back, what made it easier than previous times is the knowledge that May is always a difficult time for me (I don't fully understand why but it is!) and May is only but one month in 12! However, on the downside, is that when you really really want something to last forever - like being with John - it is incredibly painful when it comes to an end but, again, what made the loss easier, I think, is that a few days before he died I'd accepted defeat and that I was going to lose him. Certainly, I hate to think how much worse it would've been if I'd still been fighting the inevitable! So, yet again, I'm learning/realising that attitude plays a huge part in the life you have.
Career: Another morning at work: Nice chats with people. Nice work. Nice cups of tea. What's not to like? :)
Life: This afternoon I was tempted to go for a cycle ride but was worried I would get sunburn and, besides, I had things to do at home and places to be, so I didn't. Maybe tomorrow? This evening I went to Gather The Women. The theme this month was 'Your Inner Voice'. It was interesting and by the end I was reflecting on the journey I'd made in recent years to be OK with my inner voice and accept it for what it is, rather than have an inner voice that brought me very very close to self-destruction. I've also been noticing in recent days how things seem to be adding up and making sense; that what previously seemed terrible I now see as potentially wonderful! :) All that is changed is my attitude. I've also been thinking about loss differently. There is no doubt that the lowest point in my life was John's death. But what it showed me is that nothing is forever. So there's no point trying to fight the inevitability of change and things coming to an end. On one hand, this is great! If I'm going through a really shitty time, then what I should bear in mind is that shitty time will come to an end and things will improve again. That was proven just this last month when May was a really difficult time for me but, looking back, what made it easier than previous times is the knowledge that May is always a difficult time for me (I don't fully understand why but it is!) and May is only but one month in 12! However, on the downside, is that when you really really want something to last forever - like being with John - it is incredibly painful when it comes to an end but, again, what made the loss easier, I think, is that a few days before he died I'd accepted defeat and that I was going to lose him. Certainly, I hate to think how much worse it would've been if I'd still been fighting the inevitable! So, yet again, I'm learning/realising that attitude plays a huge part in the life you have.
Career: Another morning at work: Nice chats with people. Nice work. Nice cups of tea. What's not to like? :)
Wednesday, 24 June 2015
24th June 2015
Love: I have made a wish for she to be mine. :)
Life: tonight I attended a dream board workshop at Big Love Sista studio. The result was somewhat surprising. I realised I wanted less not more - which will be great financially! :) Because Ian had been spraying weedkiller yesterday, I had to keep Mia indoors for most of the day and she wasn't thrilled with the idea! I fully expected to come home from work to find the place trashed and a dump on the carpet! But, no, she had been as good as gold! Bless her! And tonight she has decided to sleep at the top of the stairs as though she's guarding me from something. Maybe she knows something I don't! :k
Career: after my usual shift, I stayed on for my volunteering role. I looked into the Stoptober campaign. It's a mammoth task! I hope I'm not found wanting! :k
Life: tonight I attended a dream board workshop at Big Love Sista studio. The result was somewhat surprising. I realised I wanted less not more - which will be great financially! :) Because Ian had been spraying weedkiller yesterday, I had to keep Mia indoors for most of the day and she wasn't thrilled with the idea! I fully expected to come home from work to find the place trashed and a dump on the carpet! But, no, she had been as good as gold! Bless her! And tonight she has decided to sleep at the top of the stairs as though she's guarding me from something. Maybe she knows something I don't! :k
Career: after my usual shift, I stayed on for my volunteering role. I looked into the Stoptober campaign. It's a mammoth task! I hope I'm not found wanting! :k
Tuesday, 23 June 2015
23rd June 2015
Love: I have been an idiot! The important thing, though, is that I recognise I've been an idiot and can maybe still put it right. Fingers crossed! "The course of true love never did run smooth", as Shakespeare once wrote!
Life: Today after work, I made a mad dash to put my returned footwear in the post, pick up a phone number for a handyman to do my awning, then into Birkenhead for boot laces, lunch, Dad's birthday pressie and a pin board. Then it was home to do a bit of weeding - why did no one tell me it's easier to pick weeds than hoe them?!! Before Ian from work turned up to help tidy the back yard up. Then it was tea - Gammon Omelette a la Claire - before departing for choir. Then, when I got back home, I've been finding images for my mood board tomorrow. I think I'm about ready for bed now!
Career: More of the same old, same old. Gosh, how I shall miss it come August! :(
Life: Today after work, I made a mad dash to put my returned footwear in the post, pick up a phone number for a handyman to do my awning, then into Birkenhead for boot laces, lunch, Dad's birthday pressie and a pin board. Then it was home to do a bit of weeding - why did no one tell me it's easier to pick weeds than hoe them?!! Before Ian from work turned up to help tidy the back yard up. Then it was tea - Gammon Omelette a la Claire - before departing for choir. Then, when I got back home, I've been finding images for my mood board tomorrow. I think I'm about ready for bed now!
Career: More of the same old, same old. Gosh, how I shall miss it come August! :(
Monday, 22 June 2015
22nd June 2015
Love: More cuddles with Mia this evening. Sometimes she is my only solace. She makes life worth living. <3
Life: Whilst at work I spotted a Healthwatch article about feedback on GRS services. And so it was that I gave them my experiences. I can only hope that this finally sees the GICs get their act together because the way they treat Trans people is disgraceful! When I got home, I awaited delivery of my Dr Martens boots. I intended to return one pair but as it happens the pair I'm returning isn't the pair I expected to return. It just shows you can never be sure when you're buying stuff off the internet - especially with my feet!
Career: after my usual shift this morning, I did my first voluntary shift as Media Assistant for our Smoking Cessation/Health & Wellbeing services. The great thing about volunteering is you can come and go as you want. So when I ran out of things to do this afternoon, I was able to call it a day rather than sit and twiddle my thumbs.
Life: Whilst at work I spotted a Healthwatch article about feedback on GRS services. And so it was that I gave them my experiences. I can only hope that this finally sees the GICs get their act together because the way they treat Trans people is disgraceful! When I got home, I awaited delivery of my Dr Martens boots. I intended to return one pair but as it happens the pair I'm returning isn't the pair I expected to return. It just shows you can never be sure when you're buying stuff off the internet - especially with my feet!
Career: after my usual shift this morning, I did my first voluntary shift as Media Assistant for our Smoking Cessation/Health & Wellbeing services. The great thing about volunteering is you can come and go as you want. So when I ran out of things to do this afternoon, I was able to call it a day rather than sit and twiddle my thumbs.
Sunday, 21 June 2015
21st June 2015
Love: Today I've done something I don't think I've ever been able to do in my life before - lie down in the sun and sunbathe. I love the fact that I felt so at ease with the world that I was able to relax and do nothing. :)
Life: That being said, I still struggle with compliments... This afternoon was another at Africa Oyé. After roast lunch at Keith's Restaurant on Lark Lane, which was pretty good, I met up with Clare, Sandra, Rach, Patricia, Shirley and Amanda. As said, I relaxed in the sun... and Sandra took photos. Well, just before bed, Alison complimented me for my appearance and Clare and Patricia joined in. I'm afraid I don't share their opinion that I'm a "stunner". I feel anything but! If I was, then why is there no end to singledom even remotely in sight?!! It's the same as when Clare said I had "great legs" this afternoon - my legs are bent and deformed for heaven sake! Let's not kid ourselves otherwise! I'm sorry, but let's just face facts: I am what I am and I'm not going to find myself an 'admirer' any time soon!
Career: Sunday is a day of rest. I'm glad I managed it for a change. :)
Life: That being said, I still struggle with compliments... This afternoon was another at Africa Oyé. After roast lunch at Keith's Restaurant on Lark Lane, which was pretty good, I met up with Clare, Sandra, Rach, Patricia, Shirley and Amanda. As said, I relaxed in the sun... and Sandra took photos. Well, just before bed, Alison complimented me for my appearance and Clare and Patricia joined in. I'm afraid I don't share their opinion that I'm a "stunner". I feel anything but! If I was, then why is there no end to singledom even remotely in sight?!! It's the same as when Clare said I had "great legs" this afternoon - my legs are bent and deformed for heaven sake! Let's not kid ourselves otherwise! I'm sorry, but let's just face facts: I am what I am and I'm not going to find myself an 'admirer' any time soon!
Career: Sunday is a day of rest. I'm glad I managed it for a change. :)
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